Chance = Change

..my true love gave to me: a chance to never get out of my jammies all day!!!! Peter and Charles (his Pop) stayed up til 4:30 am putting together the new CSI CRIME Jigsaw Puzzle Peter gave me for Christmas...the next step is to use the inlcuded UV light to solve the crime!!! So, Peter is still asleep and why not: he has two shows to day! While I? A lady of leisure...that is me!! YAY! My darling in-laws are here, and the past few days have idyllic Christmas ones, spent in love, warmth, abundance and sugar!!! Not to mention gifts, far too many...and fun opening them!So many, I got weary opening them...I seem to tire after the 10th gift or so...I mean , come on!!! How many "goods" can one person have? The entire Barter Theatre Company has had the past two days totally off, and so many fled the scene for that time and are all gathering back for the two shows of MODERN CHRISTMAS CAROL today. Pat and Charles will see the matinee, and possibly even the evening show as well...my WISE WOMEN closed this past week. And so my creative link with the Barter is offficially severed for now. It makes me feel really odd, but also strangely and healthily liberated as well, since change is cleansing, as well as being terrifying. I mean I adore this place, have never felt so needed and at home anywhere, and in the same breath I can say that the thought of being back in NYC is exhilarating and almost drunkenly exciting. SO...what's a girl to do? Being pulled so hard in two directions? I do believe my heart is large enough to contain it all. NOW: IF I can just stop eating everything in sight, maybe my heart will be the only thing large enough for the conflict! IF YOU ARE EDIBLE, GET OUT OF MY WAY, BECAUSE I WILL DEVOUR YOU! And so the Hoidays are sweetly (as in sugar) upon us, and not a cookie is safe within my sight! Well, you know what? I am old enough to know that all this will change when I want it to, and so I will not panic....well, maybe a little. I have received some fabulous and gorgeous gifts, wearable, spendable, playable. People have been far too generous, but that is the way they are , the people in my life. We spent many hours of yesterday opening and opening and opening presents, and int he middle we have a breakfast of Charles' buttermilk pancakes! YUM! (See what I've been saying?). And a large turkey dinner last night...and well, I MADE CHRISTMAS COOKIES and now they are all gone!!!! They were very delicious and artistic looking, but finally, now, all eaten up in a frenzy of sweetness and creaminess...not a crumb to be seen remains. Well, Peter and I have our work cut out for us in the next two weeks, and that should take some sweat and calories to accomplish...I will also sew my mouth SHUT! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!