Friday, August 28, 2015


Disappearing on the West Coast : Tuesday, February 24, 2015 CYRANO

SALLY






- YES! 2015! It's been over a year or so that I've posted on these pages.

The above pups are getting older and near their ends….frankly, as I have become more and more their mommie and their caretaker since moving to San Francisco, i will feel the loss of them acutely…like losing two arms at once…Peter of course will miss them, but they are my ONLYcurrent employment , EXCEPT FOR A BIT OF WRITING , and so i will be mostly out of a job once they depart for dog paradise…..yep…out of a job.

I am stunned to realize that I actually started this early blog way back in 2004 ( so many are bloggers now, for money, for fame, for notoriety , for popularity, for whatever - just to all!) and i realize i've written a whole lot in it….and some people have even read some of it….i've never tended to it much. Never gave it much thought.

Didn't seem all that important…but i underestimated the power of the phenomena…people WANT TO BE HEARD…and so…i guess i had better re-engage a bit…i may never get it to the pro level as so many have, though it might be amusing to try - but it is an outlet for my thoughts and feelings…and there seem to have been people through the years who cared about that or got something from it…..maybe that matters to me more than i have let myself know it lately, especially since I am no longer an actor and have given up the theatre as a way of life…

I KNOW, I KNOW…SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE, right?  EVALYN BARON GIVING UP THE THEATRE?  IMPOSSIBLE.

But it seems to have happened, and back four years ago, I'm sure I had my reasons, but now i wonder, and am left in a bereft state due to some decisions I made….dare i speak of those? I have to…i have to...

I read through the San Francisco years - from late 2010 til now in 2015 - and except for the Marina TIMES columns I somehow managed to get onto here, i speak very little of my life here…and thats probably because I HAVEN'T HAD MUCH A LIFE TO TALK ABOUT!!

I see on Face book all of my former theatre comrades are busy, employed in one Broadway show after another, one interesting project following on the heels of another….and i've not let jealousy or envy enter my thinking or my heartwell…maybe a teeny tiny bitn ow and then….a "wish I was there" thought…..but i am feeling vulnerable now.

I told very few people, but I had cancer - a minor case of endometrial cancer Stage 1 Grade 1,- four years ago, and it was taken care of completely in the course of 100 days of the summer of 2011….lucky i had it no worse…but unlucky because I've developed an anxiety disorder based on medical fears now, that innocence of thinking we live forever has been sloughed away with my hysterectomized utereus!   I now know: we all die and we NEVER know what 's going to get us or WHEN…so, yeah, we're all pretty much sitting ducks….right?

F'rinstance, I had my yearly PAP smear last Friday (today is Tuesday) and so WHERE ARE THE DAMNED RESULTS?  Do the doctors think I ENJOY sitting around agonizing over whether the results will be good or bad for my health?

Now i realize - I understand - most women may not have this kind of terror surrounding medical procedures or tests…when I was young and untouched by the exigencies of real life, i never gave a PAP smear a thought , neither did I give a Mammogram much weight in the doings of a normal day…they were just things you did, as a matter of course…..but NOW I KNOW: You take those exams, dive into those small procedures , no matter how reluctantly, to find SOMETHING BAD! YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE LOOKING FOR TROUBLE!   It's like bearding the dragon's den, knowing all along the chance of your getting scorched is high since, let's face it that's what dragon's do: they breathe fire!  And cancer lurks in breasts, in vaginas, in all body parts, waiting to be discovered: IT'S WHAT IT DOES!!!!!!! Na-na-na-na-na-na! Come find me! They taunt.

And i am a wreck because of it. An unmitigated disaster.

Gulping down tranquilizers like they are candy, my sense are dulled. I am floating through my life which, admittedly is not much of one right now, but i would like to be awake for how nothing it is.
And I am not awake; i am quasi awake, qualms uneasy, dry in the mouth, headachy and scared out of my sanity. SO THERE!


AH LIFE







Marina TImes August 2015 column: Enjoy!

Sitting and sitting, watching and seeing: Ashland and Sea Ranch
Sitting and sitting, watching and seeing: Ashland and Sea Ranch
In July, we finally made it to the Oregon Shakespeare Festival in Ashland, and it was worth the wait, well worth the 350-mile drive north. We took our pups, and found a friendly, too-good-to-be-true dog sitter in Ashland named Susan. Yay, Susan!
When I first proposed a trip to OSF two years ago, my husband begged for a vacation away from theater, since he spent most of his waking hours overseeing a busy one on the job. So we rented a house at Sea Ranch and sat by the Pacific for 10 days. This time though? We made it to both OSF and Sea Ranch. It was the perfect vacation for us.
No matter how much we protest, Peter and I are dyed-in-the–wool theater people, and even though I’m taking a break from performing and directing to concentrate on writing, I am without question the best audience member you could ask for. I laugh loudly, cry a lot if it’s sad (or bad), and I genuinely appreciate all the hard work that’s gone into making a theater event happen. So I was thrilled at the prospect of seeing four different shows at OSF, and seeing all those veteran actors doing their thing in a variety of roles.
It was wonderful.
From director Mary Zimmerman’s musical production of Guys and Dolls, through a new play about a pickpocket in Victorian England called Fingersmith, then onto a delectable showing of Shakespeare’s Pericles, all the way to the bitter end of a huge outdoor spectacle of The Count of Monte Cristo, we sat and sat and saw and saw some more, genuinely enjoying what that terrific company of actors had to offer.
But when I say “bitter end,” I’m actually referring to how we felt after sitting for all those hours, because our “ends” were worn out! I mean, how could they not be after sitting through three of the four productions that turned out to run several hours each? Yes, we chose large plays (the musical was delightful and mercifully not as long), so our posteriors began to feel the wear and tear, despite the comfort of the seats in all of the festival’s theaters.
Four shows in two days is just a lot of sitting. No complaints, just a deeply felt observation. Deeply.
But then?
We drove to Sea Ranch.
This gorgeous community of planned houses, recreation centers, and other amenities north of San Francisco has an illustrious history, filled with American Indian lore, Russian explorers, and refugee hippies. But the part we’re fortunate enough to take part in started in 1963, when some architects and land developers created a collection of dwellings just south of Gualala that paid homage to the land and its surrounding waters, insisting on designs that blended with the magnificent local topography. The result is beautiful to look at, and these days, possible to rent.
Beautifully appointed properties are available for short- and longer-term stays, and we’ve rented several places there over the past few years, through an agency called Rams Head Realty (707-884-1427, ramshead.com).
Each house we’ve rented has been a delight, each in its own way, and this visit was no exception at Stoney House.
Perched on the edge of heavily wooded lands, every room has a view of the ocean, including the guest quarters. Outside our master suite was a wonderful hot tub, and with a chilled glass of local wine, I enjoyed that a lot. So did my exhausted posterior! Oh, the feel of fresh ocean breezes wafting over bare skin, as the warm waters of the bubbling hot tub relaxed all my tired, theater-going muscles. Pure pleasure every time, it restored my desire to sit through even the longest play.
We’ve been to Sea Ranch fairly regularly since that first time years ago when we went there to celebrate a friend’s birthday (the hosts rented three houses for all guests to enjoy), but each visit seems the best. Stoney House welcomed us warmly, and we barely moved from it the entire week — only to shop for groceries, make a trip to the local wine tastings, and enjoy a small Mexican restaurant we’ve discovered in Anchor Bay. We reclined ourselves in front of the living room panoramic windows, and stayed there for hours on end, never tiring of the view.
And so, we healed from our brief but tiring excursion into the world of Shakespeare and other theatrical delights.
Of course, we shall go back often to the Oregon Shakespeare Festival. It’s one of the treasures of living on the West Coast.
As for Sea Ranch?
It’s where I want my ashes scattered.
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